….I don’t have to see all the things that cause me pain. If I close my eyes and put ear muffs on…I don’t have to hear all the things that cause me pain either. The blessed quiet..similar to floating in a lake….muffled noise….almost like there isn’t any noise at all…..the constant noise every day for hours on end… If I close my eyes and put my muffs on…I get to experience some peace…blessed peace…

Most of what I held dear has been taken away from me, if not physically…then emotionally. Things that made me happy have been criticized, belittled…cut down. Of course those things weren’t perfect, I know that, but they were mine. I’ve had to start over so many times…trying to not get attached to anything material because it can be gone in an instant.

If I close my eyes, I don’t have to see….if I close my heart, I don’t have to feel.