…when I retired. I really did. I had in my mind I would have 11 more hours of waking time to use….and I suppose, I DO but….I thought it would be more like 11 hours to goof off and not have any responsibilities. But…as a grown-up….there are so many responsibilities to tend to. I know that my 11 hours that I thought I would have will be given back to me someday. My lack of time is being used towards a means to an end. Moving to Wyoming. I have never lived in Wyoming. I bet I will like it though….for the most part anyways. I am accomplishing what I truly wanted to do when I was retired. I am purging material items. It is HARD to do this purging thing. Not that I am not good at getting rid of stuff but I am going through things and then after a week, I go through the box again. That gives me time to not be so impulsive and think about keeping something that I have not used yet or that I rarely use. I know I would like to keep a lot of keepsakes but to what end? None of them mean anything to my daughter and she will more than likely be the one who has to deal with all my crap when I cross over to the other side. I don’t want that for her. She has enough on her plate as it is. But then again, maybe she doesn’t have that much on her plate and I just think she does.
On top of purging my own items, I have my parents home to deal with too. My dad does not live there and there is so much “stuff” that is sitting there collecting dust. My aunty keeps it all clean but to what end? Until my dad passes away and we give it all to Goodwill? I am at a loss of what to do with the stuff, so I am letting it sit for a while…contemplating who might need something that is in the house. I think it is a little difficult for me to accept that I have two places to deal with but I guess, the situation is what I make of it, right? We all have free will and I can do what I want with it, when I want to.
But I digress….I really thought I would have more time! I hope you have more time in your life. Time to do what you want. Time to do what you must.
The Healing Place 
I so relate to mot having enough time. It is the biggest problem of my life. I can’t wait until I stop working and can do art and ministry full time. I wonder if I’ll feel like you do afterwards; still not enough time?
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Seriously…it is really hard to make time for yourself once you are retired. I find myself stepping in and doing things my husband would normally be doing because I hadn’t retired yet. But….the relief I feel in my chest from not being at a job all week is so worth it.
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Yea, I can’t wait till I don’t have to work.
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Ya….the whole “work” thing….there are so many things that have been on the back burner for years that I am still looking forward when I don’t have to “work”. LOL
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