…add up over time. The unanswered texts. The sharing of something that made you happy or worried you but no one seems to share in your joy or concern. Over time….you begin to realize that YOU are your only self support system. You can only count on YOU. People think you are crazy because you talk to yourself and the dogs often but….hey…no one seems to care when you share, so….ya.

You wonder if what you messaged them didn’t interest them or if they have quit speaking to you. You often think to yourself…”what’s the point?” to your seeking them out…seeing if they are still alive…checking in on them…when, in fact, they never check on you. At all.

If you walk away and no longer “talk” to them, you no longer have to hear about how you blow things out of proportion, are trying to solve problems when there aren’t any, are pessimistic about everything, are obnoxious and judgmental….the list goes on…..apparently you are to be seen and not heard. You should know your place in life by now, right?

I have a friend who told me once to not stop contacting people like this because…” you don’t want to be the one who never responded to them. Continue to seek them out because when you are dead, you won’t be the one left standing who says, “I wish I would have….”. She said, ” You don’t want to be THAT person”. This is true but….sometimes that is the only option left.

Someday…all those little things…all those things added up will be too much to carry.